comme ça

{j'aime le fish eye}

{pic via ma soeur, photog here}

I feel like I only ever blog in lists. Sorry.
These are a few things that have been on my mind lately:

*Work. I woke up a few nights ago dreaming about mock-calls, or rather having nightmares about them. I fear not knowing things and not sounding confident. I fear my test at the end of the two week training. I fear rush at the end of this month that continues on until summer. On the other hand there are about 5 people that work with me who I already know, I have been making lots of friends, and it is a great environment! I had a team meeting today with "shield" {my rockin' team} at the creamery, haha! I had a croissant thanks to Harry. Thanks Harry {or should I say zac efron?! bahaha} Fantastic.

*Balance. I am trying to find a balance in my life. I've always been good at managing my time well, but I have to really crack down and motivate myself because of all the things that I have to do. Right now I should be doing some unfinished homework instead of blogging {I feel like I say that a lot}. Also, I have some new stresses in my life. Sigh.

*Summer. I can hardly wait!! I am tired of wearing layers. It will be a dream to wear skirts and dresses all the time. Although I will be working full-time this summer, I am not taking classes so every day will be a party. I've heard summer at the 'clave is fantastic and I am dying for it to come asap.

*Family. I am planning on visiting the fam after Casey's grad. It is long overdue. I love them so much. Sometimes I have to stop myself and say, "Wow, Kendra. You really have the best family ever." I am constantly amazed with how blessed I am to have them in my life. Also, my cute sister Elissa comes home in about 6 months from the mish! Woo hoo. I can hardly wait. I miss talking to her.

So . . . thanks to blogger, I have been distracted for the past hour and a half, but before I go . . .

1. I like this website.

AND

2. I want to see this movie:



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au revoir, my little lovelies!
à bientôt.

la la la

two things:

1. Thanks sister! I loved this story.

2. Also, Katie and I are pathetic apparently. great.

there are places I remember . . . some forever, not for better.

Losing a dear friend.

I have tried and tried to express my thoughts about this whole situation, but nothing ever seems sufficient or blog worthy. Is this even blog worthy?

I don't know how to act anymore. I feel so awkward, an emotion I though I'd never feel around you. Things aren't the same, not like they used to be. The fault is both of ours. We let things drift even though we didn't want them to. You've always had your opinions about my life choices, I just tried to hide from the reality of your opinions until you opened my eyes to them. Wow was I shocked! All this coming from my best friend? I guess I've had my opinions on your life choices too, although I have never expressed them. That's not my character. You said that I was just another crappy friend who came in and out of your life. I never realized that the things I did were hurtful to you. I am sorry. Although this whole situation is new to me, I am not sorry for the things that were said. I've never lost a friend before. Not like this. It's just as hard for me as it is for you.

We are still the same people, but maybe just a little more grown up. Then why is everything so different, so changed?

I guess it's just life, right?

" . . . And I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them . . .

{in my life-the beatles}

love is more than just holding hands

Ferris wheel.

















I am scared of heights {yes I get scared at the top of Ferris wheels}.
But someday my *box husband will protect me.

*Disclaimer: I am not implying that I will have a box husband. I just couldn't think of a better word to use. ;)

a blank box, gratitude, J'ai peur!

It's been a week since I last updated?! Crazy!

I am staring at a blank box. I have so many things I want to blog about, but I feel like I would just be repeating myself.

This past thanksgiving weekend was very good. I did absolutely nothing and I am proud of it! I am glad I got to see my family. I've missed them a lot. I got to cuddle with charlie. I got to eat some good food, something I haven't had for a long time. Although I didn't stuff myself, which is good. But maybe I did when it came to the desserts. Oops! I got to hang out with my extended family. My grandma taught my little sister and me how to make homemade rolls and cinnamon rolls too! I got to do a little sewing with mom, even though we didn't finish the dress. I got back to Provo safely despite the weather. We only have like 2 weeks until reading days and finals. Then it's Christmas! I have a lot to be thankful for!

Now I am trying to motivate myself to write an essay and do other homework. ugh.

Oh and I was chosen "randomly" to have a little interview with Mme. Thompson in french of course. EEK! She intimidates me. Thanks Monsieur Dennis. You know how I get when "je parle en francais," especially with Mme. Thompson! J'ai peur! You're a real pal. Just another thing to do before finals.

I need to go grocery shopping.

Je suis très occupée!