the birds {1963} scared my dad

crying is draining . . .

C'est Noël

I hope you all have a very happy Christmas.

















I Love Christmas.

fly me to the moon, let me sing among the stars

Quelle joie! Oh la liberté! Maintenant j'attendre . . . et je rêve

"fill my heart with song
let me sing for ever more
you are all I long for
all I worship and adore

in other words, i love you"

{fly me to the moon~frank sinatra}

there are places I remember . . . some forever, not for better.

Losing a dear friend.

I have tried and tried to express my thoughts about this whole situation, but nothing ever seems sufficient or blog worthy. Is this even blog worthy?

I don't know how to act anymore. I feel so awkward, an emotion I though I'd never feel around you. Things aren't the same, not like they used to be. The fault is both of ours. We let things drift even though we didn't want them to. You've always had your opinions about my life choices, I just tried to hide from the reality of your opinions until you opened my eyes to them. Wow was I shocked! All this coming from my best friend? I guess I've had my opinions on your life choices too, although I have never expressed them. That's not my character. You said that I was just another crappy friend who came in and out of your life. I never realized that the things I did were hurtful to you. I am sorry. Although this whole situation is new to me, I am not sorry for the things that were said. I've never lost a friend before. Not like this. It's just as hard for me as it is for you.

We are still the same people, but maybe just a little more grown up. Then why is everything so different, so changed?

I guess it's just life, right?

" . . . And I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them . . .

{in my life-the beatles}

Baby it's cold outside!

Now that it is colder and it has snowed, I can post this (FINALLY!). I've been waiting far too long.
The perfect winter date:

bundle up (mittens, scarves, hats, etc.)
build snow men
make snow angels
throw snow balls, etc.

then . . .

have an adventure!
discover new cafes, chocolate shops, candy shops, restaurants, etc.
taste test different hot chocolates and caramel apple ciders
be simple, be fun, be creative
of course, all while cuddling up next to your sweetie ;)


Ce sera parfait!

Only problem? I just need to find a date . . . :[] one minor detail.

i want that

O Smash Burger, O Smash Burger, how I want to eat you {sing this to the tune of O Chrismas tree}.
















I often have sudden and random cravings for certain things like a good hamburger from smash burger {seriously the best burger you will eat, no lie}. Too bad it's only in Colorado :( {Also Good Times is top quality and only in Colorado!!} Thank goodness for Christmas break! Woo Hoo!

love is more than just holding hands

Ferris wheel.

















I am scared of heights {yes I get scared at the top of Ferris wheels}.
But someday my *box husband will protect me.

*Disclaimer: I am not implying that I will have a box husband. I just couldn't think of a better word to use. ;)

des chaises, et cetera

I can't wait to decorate my own home someday. I love cool, mismatched chairs.

















{I took this picture at a crêpe stand}:

a blank box, gratitude, J'ai peur!

It's been a week since I last updated?! Crazy!

I am staring at a blank box. I have so many things I want to blog about, but I feel like I would just be repeating myself.

This past thanksgiving weekend was very good. I did absolutely nothing and I am proud of it! I am glad I got to see my family. I've missed them a lot. I got to cuddle with charlie. I got to eat some good food, something I haven't had for a long time. Although I didn't stuff myself, which is good. But maybe I did when it came to the desserts. Oops! I got to hang out with my extended family. My grandma taught my little sister and me how to make homemade rolls and cinnamon rolls too! I got to do a little sewing with mom, even though we didn't finish the dress. I got back to Provo safely despite the weather. We only have like 2 weeks until reading days and finals. Then it's Christmas! I have a lot to be thankful for!

Now I am trying to motivate myself to write an essay and do other homework. ugh.

Oh and I was chosen "randomly" to have a little interview with Mme. Thompson in french of course. EEK! She intimidates me. Thanks Monsieur Dennis. You know how I get when "je parle en francais," especially with Mme. Thompson! J'ai peur! You're a real pal. Just another thing to do before finals.

I need to go grocery shopping.

Je suis très occupée!