today I love . . .

1. phone calls. awkward goodbyes.

2. claire de lune {always love, actually}

3. anticipation for the future.

4. Elegant pictures and layouts of food that make my mouth water.
{For example: anything from this site {which has sadly ended}, this slice of heaven, or this loveliness. Simple, elegant, delicious.}

5. This video/commercial:




So have a lovely weekend my lovelies and make some face time! ;)

******

p.s. I know you are all dying to know the "surprise." Well just to clarify to all my faithful readers, there are two of them! I blogged/mentioned both briefly, but they sort of melted together. {don't fret, you will find out soon enough. just be patient}

there are places I remember . . . some forever, not for better.

Losing a dear friend.

I have tried and tried to express my thoughts about this whole situation, but nothing ever seems sufficient or blog worthy. Is this even blog worthy?

I don't know how to act anymore. I feel so awkward, an emotion I though I'd never feel around you. Things aren't the same, not like they used to be. The fault is both of ours. We let things drift even though we didn't want them to. You've always had your opinions about my life choices, I just tried to hide from the reality of your opinions until you opened my eyes to them. Wow was I shocked! All this coming from my best friend? I guess I've had my opinions on your life choices too, although I have never expressed them. That's not my character. You said that I was just another crappy friend who came in and out of your life. I never realized that the things I did were hurtful to you. I am sorry. Although this whole situation is new to me, I am not sorry for the things that were said. I've never lost a friend before. Not like this. It's just as hard for me as it is for you.

We are still the same people, but maybe just a little more grown up. Then why is everything so different, so changed?

I guess it's just life, right?

" . . . And I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them . . .

{in my life-the beatles}

Hello my name is . . .

. . . awkward. It has just become a fact of my life: I am a naturally awkward person. There is no denying it. This unfortunate characteristic stems from my extreme timidity since infancy. It is often annoying and sometimes untimely when important matters are at hand--such as interviews, meeting new people in the ward, going on dates, etc. But there is no changing my natural tendencies. Because of this, it takes time to truly get to know me. So I am sorry for any miscommunication to have caused you. I am sorry that you have to deal with me in this manner. I am honestly trying my hardest to become better at communicating to others, but alas . . . it is laborious work.

here is how you type an awkward smiley face :[]
vital information.

Go here for a view/tutorial of my favorite ASL sign, which I have used many a time to tell my friends how I feel.


and here are a few examples of me being awkward: